Overcoming myself...
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Fucking slept at 4am last night, woke up 6hours later because Jack sms me that he overslept! Pua Chee Bye! tmrw i will take needle poke his ass! HAHAHAHAHA
Anyway, in spite of lack of sleep again, i managed to drag myself out to meet Lek.
Met him at Sim Lim Sq, bought some keyboard protector for his client and off to TP1!
Felt depressed again in the train on the way to TP1, so i kept quiet all the way and listened to my iPood. I kept wondering to myself what the hell is wrong with me? I felt i was guilty of affecting my guys at work with my serious face and shit. This shouldn't be happening! Got off at Tampines made my way to buy donuts for the guys at SS Tp1! :) Went for a smoke with Keith, and he has found a new hobby, basket, now it's RC Planes... sounds like fun though... i just might! Bastard! I actually felt better, seeing other people are happy! :D It brighten up my mood a little!
Alright off to Uniqlo we went, bought the checked jacket i wanted, it rocks of cause, but only on me! *snicker* Anyway, they have quite a big selection of stuffs there, their jeans ain't too bad too!
Alright dinner time it was, sat down had a long chat with Lek, regarding some policies, my girlfriend came around 7.30pm and Lek left to meet his client!
Wasn't in the best of mood again, cause i couldn't find Muji, and someone told me it was there! :(
Made my way home... took a deep breath, finished what i wanted to do, during the VMD meeting i attended, felt a sense of relief. Now I felt better...
Smoke abit, sat abit, thought abit........finally decided to not be too serious with my face... i know it's affecting others.
Made a wallpaper for Sony Style Orchard Central!
I must overcome myself, I must master self control!
Tomorrow we will conquer together, never will i abandon my army!
CHIONG AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS: Fucking hell Keith, now i think i want to buy the RC Plane, my gf making noise already! HAHAHAH
DeadlyDivine™ {1:26 AM}
My brain is just failing to function properly...
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Why does it feel I am eating myself inside out?
Sadly, I feel there isn't much i can offer anymore.
Is my job not offering what it used to? Can it also be true
I'm only still here cause of loyalty?
When the fuck was i ever bothered by the questions? What's wrong
with you Ash?
Whatever happened to the analytical mind of a Virgo...where did it go?
I try so hard to finish reading my Sun Tzu Ping Fa on War & Management
and I haven't even got passed chapter 1, and whenever I open the book
to read, i would have forgotten what i read in the beginning.
I'm such a fake entity, putting on this mask going to work with fake smiles & laughter.
Talking of which, I am beginning to feel anger, I will embrace this, channel it well Ash you fucking cunt!
I think I'm like a bonsai plant. Cut those dead ends and will I fucking flourish even more!
I fucking rocks! Thank you!
And I will go to Japan and hopefully never come back!
I MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:::HOPES:::
Buy My white Les Paul Guitar,
Buy My amps & Gadgets
Rebuild my band
Play Again!
DeadlyDivine™ {2:33 AM}
Losing strength...
Friday, July 10, 2009
Woah it's been so long since I last posted anything on this god forsaken blog, I hardly remembered it exist.
I feel so dead everyday! WHY?
I hang around a pretentious person everyday! WHY?
Knn I wish I have an answer for this pile of shit.
Back to J-rock craze again... but perhaps too old for it ?
Who knows? Will be getting a Les Paul guitar again at the end of the month! :)
Back to jamming and a band ? YES! ^.^
DeadlyDivine™ {2:16 AM}
